Saturday, December 06, 2003

Parents back today.....house more lively and noisy...hehehe..
Dad bought me shoes for work...so nice of him...we kinda bonded closer of late. Mum was in her usual self....loved her in her ways...hahahaha

Yesterday night...I was out on the road again......the first after such a long time. Hmmm....eversince i have started teaching i think. Was refreshing.... very relaxing.....wanted to go out today, but lost all the mood suddenly. I am at a low today, do not know why.

Went out with the teachers for hari raya outing on thursday, they are a swell bunch of teachers, professional yet they keep that sense of exuberant in them. Gave lotsa pointers in teaching and class management. They comments were encouraging. I was the only one without a partner cos they most of them were already married yet i dun feel out of place. they did try to pair me up with 'Julie' the ficticious chracter. all because i miscalled a collegue of mine, Suzi and shouted julie insted....they were wondering who the hell i called.....kept shouting 'Julie...oooh Julie' only to realise later that i called the wrong then. From then on, they kinda teased me askng who Julie was.....hahahahah...had a blast!




|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 6:59 AM|

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Wednesday, December 03, 2003

Yesterday was.....a very down day for me.....a person i've had known for 10 months have found a new love interest...

Theoretically, i should be happy for her....i really do...but there is this small part of me that really feel that I have lost something significantly important....in my Life. I think in that 10 months we have known each other...subconciously,i have haboured feelings for her....maybe its her character, her readiness to embrace life,smile on it and not looking back and frown attitude that makes me have such feelings to start. Ouh Well...life is life.....what is not meant to be....not meant to be. I was rather shocked when i called her....and she told me the news....I was glad in a way that i'm told off...the last thing i want to be is an obstacle in someone's life. Well.....i'll look forward for Life now.....bearing in mind that all the things she has said towards life.....

Thank You very much Indahwahyuni.......a nice name befits a splendid and charming person.

There is still this feeling of emptiness.....still......dun know what caused it. would really love to get rid of it soon. I am never a fan of morbid feelings.....eventhough i relish the thought of dark grimmy wet days..... Did practically nothing yesterday cept for house chores and to top it up i had a case of fever. Mum and Dad are in KL right now with my baby sis..........left yesterday morn. The house looks empty....close to void.....

Had a shock today, Milo Girl smsed me...asking how my life is getting on by.....it's kinda nice to get to "reacquainted" with old friends. Well....am getting ready to go out now.....will blog in more materials soon.....i could sense more things awaits me.

*~ I'll be your love suicide.....the one that silenced the sweet memories...~*


|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 9:10 PM|

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Monday, December 01, 2003

Eid is a week old...today......Not feeling too good of late...since Eid.....felt empty....can't describe the feeling...everything is not the same anymore.

Chickadees jammed earlier today....i kinda like the sessions we had....i see myself playing a minor part in the band but the rest ensured me that I'm not...so thank you guys...!!!! Met a very old old acquaintace of mine on wednesday. Wah missed Milo Girl oh so much!...I have also reconnected with a person I knew while doing my National Service 2 years back. Wishing her a Happy Eid!

This past week was filled with memories.......good memories. Memories that made me what I am today. For that I feel thankful. have drafted a new routine for me and I do really hope i could stick to it till July next year....then it's CRUNCH TIME!...arrggh!

I have also started my rantings......again.....it keeps me occupied. Well, '03 is coming to an end....'04 is beckoning...I hope good things come my way and also the way of the many.....I am getting tired of all this bicker and discrimination.

Well......Life, Good Night.....!


|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 8:05 AM|

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